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    Time Out New York / Issue 649 : Mar 5–11, 2008
    Secret lives

    I am a... happily married guy / happy-ending addict

    I’m just coming from there now, the spa. Yeah. I wasn’t planning on it—it’s always an impulse thing—but then I guess it isn’t totally, because I do know that I’m definitely going to go at least three, four times a month. It’s not exactly a double life, but I feel wrong doing it—it gives me this weird sense of power, which feels good and also, I know, is shitty. I don’t want to be some Patrick Bateman–like douche bag, all full of himself. But I can’t stop. I’m married, but I love to get hand jobs.

    It started with online porn. I’ve only been married for a year and I love my wife. Really, it’s an intense, open connection. And our love life is good—this isn’t about being dissatisfied. It’s about new experiences. The porn wasn’t enough, so I started looking up escorts—in-calls. There’s this site, the Erotic Review (theeroticreview.com), where these dudes post about their experiences. The rip-offs, the sure things, what to do. I was reading them and realized I didn’t want to have sex with another woman. I couldn’t do that to my wife. So the posts about the Asian spas looked great. No intercourse, just a hand job.

    The first time, I went to this place White Hyacinth (243 W 30th St between Seventh and Eighth Aves, suite 501; 212-279-6644), and it looked like a real spa, in a legit business building. They gave me a shower on a table, a bad massage and nothing after. I didn’t ask—I didn’t know. So then I went to this other place that got amazing reviews, Gold Spa (128 W 36th St between Sixth Ave and Broadway, 212-947-0544). I walked in one workday morning, because that’s how you beat the other dudes. There’s an Asian chick there. She takes me into a small room. And it’s like—she got right down to it: stroking me, she took off her top, I’m sucking on her nipples. No sex. Again, it was about the new experience. To be honest, I wasn’t thinking, I’m so turned on. It was more like, Wow, these nipples are different than my wife’s nipples. Do I like that? I don’t know. But something’s working. Afterward, when I leave these places—especially if it’s cold outside—I see everything in HD. I’m so relaxed.

    I got to work that day and felt like, Man, if these people knew…They’d never guess, they’d never know. I’m Mr. Clean-Cut IT Guy. But if they did…I’ve been back to Gold Spa—and White Hyacinth, which turned out to do something similar, if you ask. And I also tried this place called My Heavenly Hands, which advertised on Craigslist. Latin women. You go to this studio apartment right over the Ed Sullivan Theater where Late Show is filmed, which I think is funny.

    Each time I go after work to any of these places, I feel like I’m shedding my office personality and doing my own thing—something that’s mine. I feel that way when I come home, too—not guilty. I compartmentalize it. I tell my wife that I was at work late. If that’s what I need to be the perfect worker and decent husband, then I deserve it. See, again, I sound like a complete asshole. But I don’t know any other way to, you know, feel clear.

    As told to Michael Freidson, Allison Hope, Kate Lowenstein and Lauren Shopp




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    • 35051 sebastian cookie Sun, Aug 24, at 02:28pm
      I think as good as your experience might be you are playing with fire, you shifted from porn to sucking other women nipples, it's a matter of time until you start having real sex and eventually you will get caught . you should find a different way of taking your stress from office with something more constructive for your life and esp for the ones who love and trust you.

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    • 31151 jlseph Thu, Aug 14, at 02:47pm
      love happy endings! nothing better than a hot russian or asian girl finishing the massage rightI have gotten some of the best head in my life from little asian massage girls! this guy is a total fag for blowing up those spots.

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    • 30701 eddy Wed, Aug 13, at 01:33pm
      Lets turn the tables. how would you feel when you are getting all these happy endings, and 1 day you go to a new spot and its your wife giving all these men happy endings? with some guys c@ck in her hand and he is playing with her breast? I highly doubt you would like it. why did you even bother getting married?

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    • 27791 samson Sat, Aug 02, at 04:27pm
      You are a total friggin loser. Thanks a lot for being a douchebag!!!!!! F*ck you Michael Freidson, Allison Hope, Kate Lowenstein and Lauren Shopp!!!!!

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    • 19321 me Wed, Jul 09, at 10:57pm
      http://www.sexaddict.com/index.html Get help. It is possible to have true intimacy with your wife. Your actions will have consequences eventually.

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    • 7026 Branson Fri, May 23, at 07:45pm
      Thanks alot for ruining my hobby....JackOff (pun intended)

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    • 7025 Branson Fri, May 23, at 07:43pm
      Now out of fear of being caught in a raid/sting operation two solid locations are now barred.

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    • 6969 David51 Thu, May 22, at 09:26pm
      Grow up, all of you. Monogamy has never worked for anyone with a pulse - read this week's article in NY Magazine. Hey, Mr. Jack - feel guilty? Too bad. Tell your wife and get a divorce. No? Then keep it to yourself and bring this and the rest of your transgressions to your grave. The U.S. is a prudish and immature country, and BTW your wife can get some too, right?

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    • 6141 Anne_abler Fri, May 02, at 06:12am
      Wow. Women you shouldn't feel fucked by this. Men are all disgusting perverted simple minded fucks. They all do shit like this.Just eat a pussy,buy a dildo, and get a girlfriend. Who needs dicks anyway. Or fall in love with a total loser who doesn't give a fuck about you, get aids, and then wonder why. This guys a closet homosexual anyway, obviously.

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    • 6142 Hajna Fri, May 02, at 05:46am
      I have only one question for this "guy ". Lets turn the table. How would you feel if one day you find out that your wife doing the same thing?! Your wife would have a second life. Having fun with every single stranger who try to flirt with her, going to "girls night out" to a swinger party, going to "spas" etc. hm...How would you feel?! Humiliated? Crashed? Angry?! You still think that it is OK to have sex with someone else and not telling to your wife?! One more thing why did you get married?

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    • 6109 Judy Thu, May 01, at 08:12am
      If I was your wife and I knew you were doing this, I would be so hurt! You need to stop doing this, or tell her about it. Youre being selfish and only thinking of yourself, you dont even seem to care that what your are doing could hurt someone you love very deeply.

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    • 5443 Mike Sun, Apr 13, at 03:09pm
      I think the many of the commenters have larger issues than they claim this guy does. Calm down. So you've witness this guy stray from true monogamy via some journalism. Deal with it. Perhaps offer an insightful comment on it, too.

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    • 5328 Shannon Thu, Apr 10, at 03:37pm
      "Clearly somethings wrong w/someone who has no problem repeatedly lying to his wife- which is a complete disrespect." Yeah, he's a sociopath. I know because I dated one. Not only was he abusive, I've since learned that he's a closet homosexual. These types are freaks to be avoided. As for the losers on here that are crying because they can no longer patronize these sex-slavery establishments, get a life. You must be SO desperate if you can't even pick up a drunk chick in a bar. Total losers!

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    • 5268 Alisha Wed, Apr 09, at 03:01pm
      This is just screwy. He thinks he's so entitled & has no remorse about it, no genuine remorse atleast. Clearly somethings wrong w/someone who has no problem repeatedly lying to his wife- which is a complete disrespect. This guy has serious intimacy issues & likely has many others & is incredibly narcissistic. I cant write enough to show how disgusted I am w/ this and how the article virtually promotes it providing links..

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    • 5267 Alisha Wed, Apr 09, at 12:59pm
      This is just screwy. He thinks he's so entitled & has no remorse about it, no genuine remorse atleast. Clearly somethings wrong w/someone who has no problem repeatedly lying to his wife- which is a complete disrespect. This guy has serious intimacy issues & likely has many others & is incredibly narcissistic. I cant write enough to show how disgusted I am w/ this and how the article virtually promotes it providing links..

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    • 5002 Tales Tue, Apr 01, at 01:30pm
      come on, this article is totally fake!!!! and people are commenting on it??

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    • 4382 Erin Tue, Mar 18, at 01:25pm
      This guy is totally cheating! What an idiot to think he is not! He's says, I can't have intercourse b/c i can't to that to my wife. WTF? But you can suck someones nipples and get a hand job??? How would you like for your wife have a guy suck her nipples and rub her area until she gets off??? Would you feel okay with that? You may feel powerful dude, but you are making the rest of us feel sick!

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    • 4273 chillax Fri, Mar 14, at 04:38pm
      calm down fellas... if any of these places close down then they'll just re-open at a different location anyway... i mean, sex slaves gotta work too

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    • 4232 Jen Thu, Mar 13, at 04:10pm
      I caught my ex-boyfriend partaking in these activities--after noting a suspicious dialed call on his phone, I scanned the records of our JOINT phone account and found he frequently called woman advertised on the internet who provided these services. I have never felt so violated and hurt in my entire life--by someone I presumed to be my best friend. I understand certain people have sexual fetishes, but if they put up a front of being monogamous, it's all hypocrisy. You can't have your cake and..

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    • 4229 UWS Thu, Mar 13, at 02:46pm
      I feel sort of gross now, and far dirtier than before i read this article. Why doesn't he tell his wife he likes the kinky stuff and needs extra stimulation? Instead, he's letting strange women rub his stick while he sucks places that have seen, what, 100 mouths a day?? Is she disinfecting that thing in between clients? Where are the alchohol swabs?

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    • 4179 Ridiculous Wed, Mar 12, at 10:54am
      This is totally insane. If you feel guilty for your hidden desires, then don't go. If you can't confide to your wife your need for these massages, then you should not have married her. You create your own world of guilt for yourself and write up an article to ease your conscience. You should feel guilty because you are guilty, for making bs excuses and lying to yourself to make yourself feel better.

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    • 532 WTF man!? Mon, Mar 10, at 04:13pm
      Go back to writing columns in page 12 for the small town paper from where you came. First off, this article reads like a 10 year old's text message. Learn how to write like an educated adult. Second, your experience at these establishments reek of bullshit. You probably gathered information from various monger websites. Thirdly, you killed it for many guys out there. I hope your wife divorces you and takes half of the $10/hour you make waiting tables and writing fake articles in Starbucks.

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    • 461 G-tak Sat, Mar 08, at 10:54am
      I'm amazed at the incredibly bad grammar and spelling skills of most of the people making comments. That they can manage to use computers well enough to actually read and respond seems miraculous when in fact they can barely put a sentence together (which, in fact, most can't).

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    • 463 ariesguy Sat, Mar 08, at 10:09am
      This guy is a bitch!

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    • 462 gladi8er Sat, Mar 08, at 10:02am
      I'm sure that the person who "told" this story to the four (did it really need all four?) writers didn't give the addresses of these places, but rather just mentioned the names. If you're going to be pissed at the true whistle blowers (pun not intended), then be pissed at Michael, Allison, Kate, Lauren, or the editor who chose to look up the addresses and phone numbers of White Hyacinth and Gold (Hence no contact info for My Heavenly Hands, since they no longer post on CL, and aren't listed.)

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    • 441 Spa Lover Fri, Mar 07, at 02:59pm
      Hey Fuck-Tard, I hope you catch HIV next time you goto a Spa. Thanks for blowing up a spot.

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    • 446 zeugmatic Fri, Mar 07, at 02:57pm
      Funny how all the straight guys are most upset that this guy has ruined a "good thing" for them.....

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    • 439 Abid Fri, Mar 07, at 01:37pm
      happy ending's

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    • 417 Queens Fri, Mar 07, at 11:04am
      I am sure that this guy: Goe

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    • 424 Alex Fri, Mar 07, at 10:35am
      This guy its a LOSER why doesnt he comes clean to the wife if he wanted to feel "CLEAR" he post ALL THE INFO ABOUT THE place like the other comment mention its only a matter of time police raid the place thanks to this asshole he screw it up FOR ALL OF US !! I LOVE MY WIFE BUT YOUR WIFE TAKES CARE OF YOU SHE DOESNT ENTERTAIN YOU if i had that guy in front of me i kick his ass !! LOSER

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    • 423 Butch Meaney Fri, Mar 07, at 10:33am
      Seriously, he ratted every guy's secret spot because he had NO GAME in keeping it from the wife, so he writes this stupid article. What a coward.

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    • 422 Queens Fri, Mar 07, at 10:26am
      To describe in words how much of a scummy thing it is to name actual places is beyond what my vocabulary can accomplish. There is no man that would do such a thing. Only a latent homesexual with strong feelings towards men and problems with erections could accomplish that. Or a woman who followed her husband to the spa one day.

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    • 420 Queens Fri, Mar 07, at 10:11am
      I am sure that this guy: -goes to church every sunday -conservative -republican -tattletale when he was a kid -lies at work -has a sales job -tells his wife he loves to take out the garbage -bad in bed but thinks he amazing -lies to his friends about what he makes -small penis This place is now ruined. Police will shut it down within a month. This guy will somehow feel better about himself. Like when Guiliani beat up the strip clubs in NYC. Losers always lose, dude.

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    • 418 Queens Fri, Mar 07, at 10:04am
      I am sure that this guy:

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    • 416 Queens Fri, Mar 07, at 10:03am
      I am sure that this guy:

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    • 410 Orlando Fri, Mar 07, at 09:25am
      why you have to ruined the fun for everyone else asshole if youre feeling guilty then DONT GO if you can separate fellings from pleasure thats your problem but noooo your idiotic mind has to post this HERE and have women take a shot at you ,that will never understand why us mendo this right about now there are thousands of guys that would love to kick your ASS and am one of them!!! RESTARD

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    • 412 Adrian Fri, Mar 07, at 08:48am
      HEY SELFISH BASTARD !!! DO YOU FEEL CLEAR NOW feeling better that you ruined the fun for everybody else

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    • 411 Orlando Fri, Mar 07, at 08:32am
      YOU bastard !!! FEEL CLEAR ! huh?

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    • 409 Tavo Fri, Mar 07, at 08:19am
      hey fuckhead if youre feeling guilty then DONT GO

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    • 408 Tavo Fri, Mar 07, at 08:18am
      Thanks A LOT FOR messing he fun for the rest of us ASSHOLE

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    • 392 Bilan Thu, Mar 06, at 06:38pm
      You are an ASSHOLE!!! How would you like it if your wife was going to a place to be pleasured in a way that you can just do it buddy, but of course she doesn't have sex! FUCK HEAD!

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    • 387 katie Thu, Mar 06, at 03:29pm
      this article really wierded me out today. i feel like i keep seeing more and more of these come out about married men who live here.

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    • 386 karen Thu, Mar 06, at 03:25pm
      read the one about the married guy who's also a happy ending addict

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