For a time, I was fascinated and bought into all of the hype about the Black Party. Even tried to become a performer during my time as a gay porn actor. But now that I am older and wiser, I see The Black Party for what it really is --- a den showplace for prostitutes, which is by no means cute. I am, and probably always will be PRO-exhibitionism. I will never be pro-prostitution. And most, if not all of the performers for The Black Party are prostitutes.
The reason why I am against prostitution is because there's an emotional and mental disconnect in it. And that disconnect is what paves the way for the rampant drug use that The Black Party and most circuit parties are known for. That drug use and praise of prostitution is also why the gay community is so overwrought with emotional cripples. Our community needs something that celebrates sexuality, and uses more POSITIVE role models to do it. And using doped-up porn actors who are just there for the money is not that positive image to give gay males, young or old, about sexuality. Making them front and center representation does more harm than good.
We also should consider the FACT that every year, there's a story that brings notoriety to The Black Party. The problem is the story is 90+% DRUG-RELATED. To this day, the story that I can't forget, and made me start seeing the Black Party for the mess that it is was the story of how someone defecated on the dancefloor.
I would be all for the Black Party if exhibitionism was its message. But it's not. For the times that I went there, I don't know if it ever was. And that saddens me. Making me feel that my hard-earned money went to lost causes trying to turn a big profit by giving bread crumbs and scabs to a greater cause.